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What if everything you thought you knew about prayer was keeping you from the very connection you're seeking?

This journal entry is based on a talk I gave at the Toowoomba Spiritual Church in March 2025. AI has collated the words from the the transcript of that talk (which I really should publish on the More Love Podcast!). AI is a much more entertaining writer, however be assured, I have read it, changed it and enjoyed reading it more than I enjoy my own writing! Helen xo

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When Spirit Chooses Your Reading List

It started with a book I almost didn't buy. At a spiritual fair, surrounded by stacks of books (because let's be honest, books are my thing), I found myself drawn to a title: Invoking the Light by C.F. Reynolds.

The synchronicity hit me immediately - here was another Reynolds writing about invoking light. My in-laws already think I'm into "something rather weird," so discovering this felt like Spirit was having a little fun with me. I didn't even read the back cover before adding it to my stack.

Later, in a quiet moment, I asked Spirit which book to read first. It was Invoking the Light. Little did I know this "random" choice would completely revolutionize my relationship with prayer - and with God.

The Accidental Invocation

In the book, author Catherine Reynolds shares how she was chased home by a dog during a run. Stressed and seeking relief, she sat down to write what she thought was an affirmation. Instead, she wrote:
"I invoke God's grace, which fills me with light. Light dissolves all darkness."

She had accidentally written an invocation - and everything changed.

As I read her story, something stirred in me. I'd been meditating for years, working deeply with A Course of Love, consciously choosing union with Spirit. But prayer? That felt different. Loaded. Needy.

The Prayer Wounds We Carry

If you're a sensitive soul, you might recognize this resistance. My boarding school Anglican upbringing had taught me that prayer meant: "Dear God, please solve my problems because I'm desperate."

Those prayers always felt uncomfortably needy to me - like I was bothering some distant deity with my earthly concerns. So I avoided prayer except in moments of true desperation, preferring meditation and spiritual study instead.
But what if I'd been misunderstanding prayer entirely?

The Love Letter That Changed Everything

Shortly after discovering Catherine's invocation, I began reading another book: Truly Beloved: Love Letters from the Divine Mother - channeled messages from Mother Mary. These 100 love letters are breathtakingly beautiful.

About two-thirds through the book, Mother Mary said something that impacted me as if she’d slapped me across the face with it:
"Your only purpose in life is to allow yourself to be loved by God."

What?

I was stunned. Do I allow myself to be loved by God? Really allow it, not just understand it intellectually? Do I actually feel loved by God?

I decided to find out. I modified Catherine's invocation: "I invoke God's love, and I allow myself to be loved by God."

This simple shift has been one of the most challenging - and transformative - practices of my spiritual journey.

From Desperate Pleas to Divine Dialogue: My Prayer Revolution

As sensitive people, we're often excellent at stillness, at meditation, at calming our minds and dropping into heart space. We consciously choose union with Spirit regularly.

But are we actively allowing ourselves to be loved?

There's a difference between joining with Spirit and opening ourselves to be completely, unconditionally loved. The first feels safer - we're in control, seeking connection. The second requires an open heart - letting love reach the place we keep most sacred and locked away for protection.

Prayer as Dialogue, Not Monologue

This led me back to A Course of Love and its profound teaching on prayer. Here's what shifted my entire understanding (from Treatise One, Chapter Six, Verse three):

"Prayer must be redefined as the act of consciously choosing union... Prayer is also a constant dialogue of asking, being answered, and responding. This is the aspect of prayer that makes of it an act of creation."

Three parts: asking, being answered, responding.

Most of us have the first part down - we know how to ask, though only when we’re desperate. But are we truly confident we know how to hear the answers? And when we receive them, are we responding in ways that create the reality we desire?

This reminded me of all the near-death experiencers I've interviewed on the More Love Podcast. They describe heaven as this magnificent love energy beyond words. One woman from far north Queensland told me: "I love my family dearly - that's why I chose to come back. But the love I experienced there... nothing here compares."

Dr. Eben Alexander, in his book Proof of Heaven, describes meeting his sister in that realm, who communicated directly to his consciousness: "You are loved and cherished dearly forever. You have nothing to fear, and there is nothing you can do wrong."
He writes: "The message flooded me with a vast and crazy sensation of relief. It was like being handed the rules to a game I'd been playing all my life without ever fully understanding it."

The Creator Question

This got me wondering: Do I feel that "crazy relief" when I pray? Do I open to that enormous love when I use my invocation? And most importantly - am I engaging as the powerful creator I'm meant to be?

If prayer is true dialogue with Spirit, and if that dialogue is "an act of creation," then every time I meditate without consciously engaging in this energetic conversation, might I be limiting my creative power?

I don't have the full answer yet, but the question itself has been life-changing.

The Relationship Revolution

If prayer is dialogue - asking, being answered, responding - then I'm in direct relationship with Spirit. So what makes any relationship thrive?

Honesty. Trust. Communication. Unconditional love. Oneness.

That last one challenged me most. True oneness means releasing the old conditioning that sees God as "up there" and me as "down here" - some superior being looking down, judging my choices or sitting back thinking, "Oh no, free will was a mistake. Maybe the politicians can fix this mess."

Until I can see myself in complete equality and oneness with the Divine – collectively not as separate beings but as one consciousness expressing through infinite forms - my prayer remains limited by old hierarchical beliefs.

The Invitation for Sensitive Souls

Here's what I'm discovering: We sensitive souls are often already accomplished at the spiritual practices that create space for connection. We meditate, we read inspiring texts, we consciously choose union.

But what if we took it one step further? What if we engaged in active dialogue with the Divine throughout our days? What if we truly allowed ourselves to be loved - not just understood or guided, but completely, unconditionally cherished?

What if our prayers became conversations with our most intimate beloved rather than desperate pleas to a distant authority?

Your Own Prayer Experiment

If this resonates, I invite you to try your own experiment:

Notice your current relationship with prayer. What beliefs or resistance do you carry?
Try an invocation instead of a petition. Instead of "Please help me with..." try Catherine’s invocation: "I invoke God's grace, which fills me with light. Light dissolves all darkness."
Listen for the response. After practising your invocation, pause and notice what arises - feelings, insights, synchronicities. It may take time, it may not.
Respond and create. Take action from that connected place, knowing you're co-creating with infinite love. Most of all, respond with loving appreciation for being in dialogue with Spirit.

The beautiful truth is this: You're not broken and in need of fixing. You're already whole, already loved, already one with the Divine. Prayer isn't about convincing God to love you - it's about allowing yourself to receive the love that's already there.
As we navigate these times of enormous energetic expansion, as we desperately try to keep up with opening our hearts wider and wider, remember this: You are both the experience and the experiencer. You are consciousness itself, exploring life through the beautiful, sensitive vessel of your being.
Your prayers aren't reaching up to heaven - they're conversations within the very consciousness we are.

What dialogue will you choose today?

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